Starting Out

I decided I wanted to write again. I’m not sure how this snuck up on me, but here we are. I write for work all the time, but that consists mainly of boring reports about IT projects. I want to write to feed my soul. You cannot feed your soul with talk of project budgets and timelines.

I read an article a while back that introduced me to the notion of “kairos time”. First, there is the regular time that we all know about, chronos time. That’s the time where it forces you to get up, get dressed, get ready to go to school or work. The time that carries you through your day going to meetings or getting your kids to swimming, piano, ballet, skating lessons, or whatever activities. The time that you strive for at the end of the day, the goal if you have children... bedtime... so you can have a bit of peace and sit in your own thoughts for a moment or two. 

Then there is kairos time. This is metaphysical time. Time outside of time. The time when everything stands still and you’re truly in the moment of your life, breathing it in and letting it permeate through every cell of your body. And feeling your emotions. Really feeling them, not letting them flash in front of you and then slip away as you move on to something else that chronos time is forcing you to do.

I couldn’t stop thinking about this notion of kairos time and if injecting it into my life the most I can is the key to true happiness. Listening to my eldest daughter chatter and then noticing how lovely her eyes and skin are and how her hair falls around her face. How my middle child’s slightly chubby, five year old cheeks curve into her mouth and cause a slight indent. How my two year old boy giggles at his own little joke. 

I started taking figure skating lessons, as an adult, a year ago and fell in love with it. I realise now it’s because I forget about chronos time. It’s the only way I forget about a clock and am just focused on what I am learning or trying to achieve and at the end of every lesson I’m slapped in the face with that buzzer that rudely tells me I have to get off the ice. 

I’ve decided I need more kairos time. 

This blog will simply be musings of my life and my thoughts and experiences. Sometimes they will reflect my search of more kairos time, sometimes they will illustrate how very far I am. But they will always be authentic and given freely, with an open heart.